Run and Remember

In a college course

In a high school room

A question was asked.

Is death such a thing,

That in the end we all want?

A two page essay

And hours have then passed

Sitting at the computer

In a small home there,

At the edge of the street?

A girl there sat

Barely with her eyes open

Sitting by a screen

Nothing to do at all,

Where had her day up and gone?

A blip from familiar

Faces, face on it's own

Lit up the day

If only for her alone,

And he may never know of this?

Asking for her help

She told him a thing

Run with the idea

Never let it go, Will,

You run, you clever boy, and remember?

Because of a favorite

Television show she still watches

Even in between seasons

And he knows that, too,

She wonders silently alone, 'Does he remember?'

And maybe he does

And maybe he does not

But she doesn't care

Because she helped him write,

So maybe she will write something, too?

At the same screen

She wrote a little poem

About a boy and

A quote she never forgot,

Because just maybe they'll remember this together?

One Line or Two?

As I writer I write about just everything. One of my characters as of late was taking a pregnancy test. I forgot which symbol was which. Was one line pregnant or two lines? I Googled it and all I came up with was pluses or minuses. So I had to do something I really did not want to do.

I called my mother.

Now don't assume I don't like my mother. I do. But she doesn't listen very well. The conversation went like this:

Me:  Hey, Mom, I have a question.

Mom:  What?

Me: It's for creative writing. On a pregnancy test what is pregnant, one line or two?

Mom:  What? Wait, what is the result?

Me: One.

Mom: One line good. Two lines bad. Why? Who took the test?

Me:  I dunno, some chick I just wrote about.

Mom: Oh! Okay. Don't scare me like that. Bye love ya *click*

So my mother thought when I was writing a story I was taking a pregnancy test. Thanks, Mom!

Influence of Others

This morning I had to quickly write an extended paragraph on  the influences of events in Langston Hughes's life in his literary works during my first period History class for my second period English class. I do not recommend this. I found it funny, though, that not even an hour before I was listening to John Green spout quotes. The reason for this mental hilarity was that as I wrote of Hughes's influences I had just looked at one of my own.

Other authors influence my work in different ways.

John Green's books made me want to make my own characters more realistic than before because his are so real. I could put myself in the characters place at times and not feel as though I would be reading off a script if I said what was written for them.

Stephen King makes me want to broaden my characters. I have found authors where the character is them and them alone. I want my characters to be different and feel alive, not some carbon (not really but you get the point) copy of me. Kings characters are different with each book. He is a happily married male with children and has writing books where the main character is a childless divorced woman. Broad characters make for better reading.

Robert Frost just made me contemplate everything and add and subtract and multiply my details without using math terms as I did here. I can give a message in my short stories and poetry without outrightly saying it. And I think that's beautiful.

I think that the way I write do to seeing others, and the way others write do to seeing other others, is beautiful.

Marble Maze

Every day during my 9th period class I go to my Physics of Toys teacher. Due to her title it is safe to assume she has many toys. One of my friends and I always go to the Marble Maze. The maze takes focus to put together so that the marble will move. And it need time in order to not collapse. It was during one of these times that I realized how much time we would put into those things as kids.


These revelations make it so I can really look at my inner child. I think that helps with what I'm doing. If I'm able to do that then my children characters can be written and developed properly. So thanks, Ms. Nolan, for helping me to do that.

Slut Shaming

I feel the need to put this on here as it is another theme I use in writing. A girl sleeping with multiple guys is not a slut. A guy sleeping with multiple girls isn't a slut. No one is a slut. And just because someone is dressed one way doesn't mean they're, "Asking for it." It means they like clothes. I'll have characters that have slept with multiple people in the story. Guess what?

They're not bad people. They are never antagonist. Because it is no one's business who that character is sleeping with. The characters in mini skirts or tube tops? They aren't sluts and they aren't asking for another character's penis shoved into them. They are people. In my stories they are people and in real life they are people. They don't deserve to be treated in such a way.

Inspiration in the Shower

Every so often I will get inspiration in the shower. I do not know why but I do. Maybe it's the comforting warmth and seclusion. Either way sometimes something will come.

I was reminiscing about things in my past when the idea struck. I got an image. My bits of inspiration will come in images. I saw a girl sitting on the floor holding something. Then it clicked. I won't reveal hear what it is. No, that would give it all away. But I saw it and I shall write it and love it and expand it.

I see the girl alone on the floor and I remember myself. Only it's not me because that never happened to me. I don't put myself into the stories. I put pieces. If I put my whole person in it then it's just an autobiography or self inserting fan fiction. I don't do that. But the girl is real and alive in my head. All thanks to a shower.

Day of Silence

Today is the national Day of Silence. It is a protest against LGBT bullying. It is also a protest of how the effected youth must stay silent about who they are. To protest we stay silent. This means to everyone.

In my writing I have incorporated themes relating to sexuality and gender identification. It is something I connect with and find easy to write about in a way that would connect with a reader. Something a reader could relate to is the opposition faced by the characters. Just today, as I am silent, people who I am friends with are making fun of my silence. I coughed and they said, "Isn't that breaking your silence?" It's quite rude.

But it's what happens in real life. Experiences like this fuel writing fires. They give the characters life. They aren't two dimensional anymore if they face real challenges. So though opposition on a peaceful day discourage me, I can still say, "At least I can write about this and not be alone."

Writers Block: The Evil Witch

To write about writer's block is one of the hardest things to do. The way I see writers block is like the evil witch in a Grimm fairy tale. Writers block reels you in with it's proverbial candy and then leaves you in it's house to fatten up and be killed. I have experienced it many times. Luckily writers block makes me a video game character with infinite lives.

Even now I have writers block about what to write for this entry. It's like this barrier is put up between me and my ideas. This horrible wall that separates us. And as a writer I have to choose if I want to take the time, and if the work is good enough, to break down the wall.

There are many walls still up in my brain. They eventually crumble from age than the ideas zoom in my mind with no work to go to. They go to their own space. But writers block kept them from life. Damn you, writers block. 

The Process of Portfolios

This is the final quarter. One last hurrah before the year and class is done. I may not be graduating but it will reflect in my end-of-the-year portfolio. I am doing a short stories portfolio. It will contain:

1. A short story, edited and elongated some
2. Flash fictions with the 500-1000 word limit
3. Micro-fictions with the 50-300 word limit

Each story will be typed and shaped to what I wish to convey. No story will just be words on paper. Not even the paper will just be plain white nothingness. Lilly white with a story that is completely opposite doesn't work. At least an eggshell or cornsilk. This is because not everything is black and white, not even books.

Each sheet of fiction gets it's one place. It's one big story then the sheets will be closer look alike. Microfictions and flash fictions will not intermingle. They are their own beings, their own forms, and must be separate.

Genre's of the stories will possibly include but are not limited to:

1. Romance
2. Horror
3. Mystery
4. Science Fiction
5. Society: the problems within it

Writing, if not done everyday, will be often. Prompts or editing or some form of pen on paper or fingers on keys. That is important. Something must be writen or nothing will be done. And it must be done. The stories are crying out to be beautiful.